Filed under: personal
There are days when you just wake up without any specific reason. Your body just turns on and you go about in automatic pilot.
I’ve been having those days quite often. I wake up and feel like I should do something, but I just go through the motions. Get up. Bathroom. Get dressed. Go to work. Auto-pilot.
Honestly, I don’t enjoy the feeling. I love the quiet nights, just talking, or simply walking around. I miss the simple life.
I can’t say I’m unhappy, but I’m not happy either. Truth is, it doesn’t really matter. Happiness doesn’t exist, not as phase. I believe you can have some happy moments. Where happiness fills your soul and it can last for days on end. But all in all, they are just moments, not a state. Of course this is just my view, I appreciate different opinions.
I sometimes wonder what would happen if I disappeared. I usually come to the conclusion nothing would. Everyone would go on as usual. I’m not that important in the big scheme of things.
Being an only child I grew used to my own space, physically and most importantly mentally. I need that time where i just think about me, and what surrounds me. Conclusions? Those bitches like to elude me. Once again, it doesn’t matter.
Don’t focus, move ahead. Come back to it later. The problems one faces never solve themselves, but it’s not by immersing oneself in them that the solution comes.
The Gods never give one more then one can face. I believe in that. Do you?
